Jesus said, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind. This is the first and great commandment. And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself. On these two commandments hang all the law and the prophets.

So then, when exactly did it become all about me?

God revealed the answer to my question in the following passage:

“Then I passed by and saw you kicking about in your blood, and as you lay there in your blood I said to you, Live! I made you grow like a plant of the field. You grew up and developed and became the most beautiful of jewels. Your breasts were formed and your hair grew, you who were naked and bare. Later I passed by, and when I looked at you and saw that you were old enough for love, I spread the corner of my garment over you and covered your nakedness. I gave you my solemn oath and entered into a covenant with you, declares the Sovereign Lord, and you became mine. I bathed you with water and washed the blood from you and put ointments on you. I clothed you with an embroidered dress and put leather sandals on you. I dressed you in fine linen and covered you with costly garments. I adorned you with jewelry: I put bracelets on your arms and a necklace around your neck, and I put a ring on your nose, earrings on your ears and a beautiful crown on your head. So you were adorned with gold and silver; your clothes were of fine linen and costly fabric and embroidered cloth. Your food was fine flour, honey and olive oil. You became very beautiful and rose to be a queen. And your fame spread among the nations on account of your beauty, because the splendor I had given you made your beauty perfect, declares the Sovereign Lord. But you trusted in your beauty and used your fame to become a prostitute. You lavished your favors on anyone who passed by and your beauty became his.” (Ezekiel 16:6-15)

Through the above passage, God revealed to me that my focus shifted from loving God with all of my heart, mind, and soul, to loving myself, the moment I began trusting in my own beauty. You see, for my entire life the devil has deceived me into thinking that its about my athleticism, my possessions, my physique, my intellect, my job, my appearance, my appearance, my appearance (I am aware that I repeated this one three times), my sex appeal, my money, my swag—but its not.

Like the woman in the passage above, I have also been plagued by a “spirit of celebrity”—having time and time again, allowed my own lusts, needs, and wants, distract me from loving God—the One who gave me beauty and wealth.

Lord, by acknowledging that its not about me, please help me and teach me how to truly love You with ALL of my heart mind and soul…as well as love others as I love myself.